Okay, Who Stole It???

I have searched high and low to no avail, so I am convinced someone stole my motivation.  Was it one of you beezies?  The ones who have kept going throughout the year with nothing stopping them or standing in their way?  Cuz it sure as hell ain't with me.

I bet if I read back through my posts and made a scatter graph, I could chart my cyclical motivation and lack there of.  I had a whole post planned in my head, but then I read THIS from Kristin over at My Mission Impossible and figured, well, this is exactly what I was going to say so I will just ask her if I can link to it in my blog.  She said yes.  Please, GO.  Read it.  I'll wait....

I found Kristin's blog because it was posted on Jamie Eason's facebook page.  Kristin did the Live Fit Trainer just like I did tried to.  To be fair to myself, I did get through the first 9 weeks of 12.  You can read more about that here, here, and here.  Stupid me, I never took pictures of what happened to my body after I finished the second phase and then fell off one week into the 3rd.  After I stopped working out was when I noticed the biggest changes in my body.  If I had pictures to look back on now, I would probably be more motivated to get back there.

Regardless, I am going to greece in FIVE MONTHS!!  And I know it's going to take a lot of work in that time to get where I would like to be.  The other hitch is that tax season starts this week (I have my first shift tonight) so if I don't start getting up in the mornings to do something, I am going to miss out on a lot of opportunities.

Kristin suggested I think about why I started the Live Fit Trainer in the first place.  I love the fact that it laid out day by day, exercise by exercise, how much cardio and when.  That's the kind of detail I need in my workout plan in order to get my ass in gear.  I actually just had this conversation with JB the other night.  Knowing is half the battle, amiright?

I also went from spending 90 minutes in the gym, 6 days a week, to telling myself I can get the same results with a 20-30 min intense workout, 5 times a week.  But then that 5 times turned into 3 and then none...I have spent the last 6-9 months without a solid workout plan and then add in the booze and lack of consistent nutrition and we are not in a good place people. 

I have the sads.

This is going to sound so ridiculous, but at least once a month (yes, usually right around that time), I have a major breakdown about my body.  I think terrible thoughts about myself and am so disappointed and I just cry.  It sucks.  I also tend to have major food guilt.  Don't worry, I have never had any sort of eating disorder and I don't harm myself or anything, I just have a good pity party and get on with it.

I think I put a lot of pressure on myself to succeed in this area because I am so public about fitness and good nutrition choices here on the blog, on FB and Twitter.  It's a good way to hold yourself accountable, but it's a good way to let yourself down too.  I think everyone needs a break every once in a while, but keeping those goals nearby and in sight is a good practice as well.

I don't think I will be doing the Live Fit Trainer again right now, but now that I have dug into what I need to get back on track, I can work on putting something into place that works for me.

Did some beezy steal your motivation too?  How are you planning to get back on the wagon?